Author: loveju1ie


Long time, no update

I know I have been neglecting this for awhile. I don’t have much to say (or rather i choose not to) say alot. In less than 2 weeks, it will be Benny’s 30th birthday. WOW!! It still amazes me that I have been with him since he was in his early 20′s! I remember being 26 years old when I met him. Time sure does fly by. I don’t wanna jinx myself by saying this *knock on wood* but things are starting to smooth out (PRAISE GOD!) and the drama is dying out. I feel better. I feel relieved. I feel thankful. I feel blessed and grateful. I feel humbled.


Dream big

I’m not sure what to title this entry at all. The most amazing thing happened today. I don’t want to forget it. My faith got put to the test last night and today. It was a huge challenge. Last night, I went for a one hour run and I took my keys with me and put it in my iPod shoulder holder. It ended up falling out while I was running. I was in a panic last night, cuz I would have to buy new keys. I decided to wait until the next day (today) to look for them (because it ended up storming really bad last night). So……


11 Feb love never fails

Love is not proud
Love does not boast
Love after all
Matters the most

Love does not run
Love does not hide
Love does not keep
Locked inside

Love is the river that flows through
Love never fails you

Love will sustain
Love will provide
Love will not cease
At the end of time

Love will protect
Love always hopes
Love still believes
When you don’t

Love is the arms that are holding you
Love never fails you


20 FebOur Valentine’s Day

“Love isn’t finding a perfect person. It’s seeing an imperfect person perfectly.” – Sam Keen

I saw this quote on Twitter yesterday, and It got me really, really, REALLY thinking–hard. I really started chewing on it, and thinking about that song, “Love Never Fails” by Brandon Heath and every time i hear the words: love does not run love does not hide. Love still believes when you don’t it puts everything into perspective. This past week was really rough….


21 Feb 4AM

It is currently 4AM and I can’t go to sleep. I really, really, REALLY hate it when I have anxiety. I hate it when my anxiety keeps me wide awake in the wee hours of morning. Tonight, is one of those nights. I was intending on going to bed at a decent time tonight (since Benny was spending time with his brother’s and friends tonight out of town) but he is home now fast asleep. Anyway,


what a weekend

This weekend was very wonderful (for the most part) but it was also eventful. On Friday, Benny’s brother Dan graduated from the Univesrity of Iowa (for his bachelor’s in microbiology). It was nice, because Benny wanted me to go with him (usually he likes to go alone, to have his alone time with his family). I couldn’t beleive it. I was so excited and shocked that he wanted me to go.Sexy, Hey!So, off we went and I took this cute picture of Benny driving. He looks adorable in Beanie hats. And the sunsest was breath taking. It felt like the good ol days when Benny and I first started dating. It felt amazing. It felt as it should. Everything felt right. I’m really, really


Computer Crashed

Yesterday, our 2003 Dell Inspirion crashed. BIG time. I think i may have acidentally deleted a system process (while i was checking my PC for errors). I am so pissed. I called Dell today (& got a discount) for ordering a windows XP (home edition) for 18$ bucks. Then, i’m going to have Staples fix & restore our computer. *sigh* So i will be MIA for a couple of weeks. You can still keep up with me & follow me via twitter. My link is:


love never fails

~~*Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres*~~
Yesterday, was really amazing. My boyfriend opened up himself to me in a beautiful way and spoke his feelings and shown his true vulnerability to me.It was an amazing thing. I DO have an amazing guy, and an amazing GOD who gave him to me. I couldn’t imagine my life without him. I am humbled and thankful that God saved such an amazing man for me. I am still stunned that I have someone so wonderful. I have realized,


Living fast forward

Ever since we “sprung forward” with Daylight Saving time, Everything has been in fast forward motion. I don’t have much time for anything lately. I know i have been sadly,


Easter weekend

I am really looking forward to tomorrow. Benny and I came to our hometown today, and visited with my dad and his girlfriend. We are now, at Benny’s parents house, spending time with his family. I really love spending time with his family and being out in the countryside. I love the serenity of the countryside.
Tomorrow, we are having a wonderful Easter dinner with his family. This last week was really peaceful and wonderful. I have learned alot in the last two weeks (for this year).

I have learned First and foremost…..

You can’t trust anbody. No matter what. The only person that I can trust is God. I pretty much abandoned my livejournal because of this reason. I always believed in “friends forever” but that itself is pretty rare these days. I believe and trust that God will bless me with the right friends to have (weather they believe in God or not).

Second, I have learned to not rely on emotions and feelings. Emotions and feelings are VERY carnal and fickle. Emotions are unreliable and twisted. I have learned to listen to my heart deep inside, and I have learned to listen to God’s spirit inside my heart . I have also learned that the heart itself, will always be my guide.

Third, I am humbled and deeply thankful for all the amazing, special, wonderful people who I have in my life.
I have people in my life, (around me right now) and hearing them conversing back and forth in conversation amongst each other, makes me feel really blessed. The people I have in my life now, are people who matter, and people who truly care for me. People who love me unconditionally and accept me for who I am. That’s all that matters me to me.

I have the most amazing boyfriend who loves me unconditonally. I am madly, deeply, obessively in love with him. I fall more and more in love with him everyday and every solitary second. He recently started a new work schedule this past week, and he is working longer hours. It kinda sucks, but its also nice because we have learned to appreciate each other, and our time together. He is amazing. He is the sweetest, sensitive, humble, man. I can’t wait to marry him and be with him forever. Forever to infiniity & beyond is in our future.

Things have been so perfect. I give God the credit for that though. I am really happy and I’m at a place where I’m not expecting anything bad to happen. I feel content, satisfied, strong, and secure. I’m expecting favor, peace, and happiness in our future. Things will keep getting better and better. :heart:

I hope everyone has a wonderful Easter Weekend! Remember, Easter isn’t about bunnies, chicks, and easter eggs. Its all about Jesus. He is alive and well today. He died for our sins, (so we can have a relationship with HIM) He rose again on Easter morning. People can believe in a “GOD” or a religion, but believing in Jesus IS about having a personal relationship with HIM; not because He is a “belief” or “religious figure”. HE has RISEN!!!!